bobbie_newbiemark @bobby_newmark@hackers.town

Believe Something Else; Look at your life; look at this world; at the end of a long day, what does one notable inconsequentiality mean against another? After all, when all's said and done, the details will come out in the wash.

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MUSEUM AND GIFT SHOP!

.... it's still running, right?

what?

time.

one second per second,
innit?

fuck off.

...

no, but you feel that, right?
ticking over.

and then a pause.

yeah, hanging for a cycle, and
then ticking over again. not
running smooth.

yeah.

christ. i've gotta do something.

what?

anything; doesn't matter. go
for a walk.

where?

wherever; anywhere; doesn't
matter.

now?

not like it's getting any later.

yeah.

christ, this fucking sucks.

To those of you who may be wondering whether I am still in a quote unquote "mood" I have this to say:

Yes.

To those of you who may further be wondering whether it is a quote unquote "big mood" I have this additionally to say:

It is about yay big, maybe a li'l smaller than a breadbox.

at some point i'll maybe get comfortable enough with my gender presentation that i can just be like "yeah i'm butch as hell fuck off" but that's also gonna take a while.... 😔

living in fear that i sit problematically like a dude

but like

to really change that i gotta probably either get much thinner thighs or less stuff between my legs and neither of those is liable to happen for a while so.... 😣

also by "more" i mean "any even a little bit" but at least my weight has started moving around so that's nice ​

getting coffee AFTER doctor's today. bp still high but i wasn't really expecting that to change; heart rate less over-fast

still gotta lose more weight but also getting an egg and cheese anyway 'cause i'm worth it. 🤔

feared ( fedi weird )

big gender

just landed in LA

also, welp, this weekend put my regrowing my fingernails progress back by like probably at least a month or two.

( via a combination of stress and trashing nails moving heavy things and also there's maybe something else going on iunno.

hopefully having started taking biotin will eventually mean once the new nail makes it out to the edge they'll be more durable and stuff but like that's gonna be a.... while. :\ )

The Matrix Dance Dance Revolution

well! people continue to say they like my h.t shirt! myyyyyy complements to the designer! 👍🙆‍♀️👌

you wouldn't SNAF a MAN

JetBlue: Even More Space ™️

me: uhhh, once yer in space you don't need an airline

a flight so full their offering vouchers if you're willing to have them put you in a harness and strap you to the wing

#swag

funny how i seem to be way more cage-y about visibly flagging as trans when i don't have any knives and am surrounded by cops!

this was less true last summer ( flew in a pride shirt zero worries ) but also i was flying with people then and had more plausible "ha ha no no i'm just an ally" deniability

( do have my HUMAN pride shirt with me and might wear it on the flight back; it did seem to get me read as "yep, no, weird but not threatening" which a suri shirt does less well )

please deposit any items you may need during the flight in the receptacle provided 🚮

this has happened like three times! i did not sleep yesterday!

this floor is extremely not level and i keep forgetting, taking a step, and falling into the wall

putting my laptop with prominent trainsgender and hacker stickers in the bin pointedly stickers side down

yep, it's an air day